Guilty Pleasure

My sons gives me the energy to go above and beyond my abilities. Every morning they inspire me to do the best I can. They are both my motivation.  I want to be that image my boys see as a mother of achievements. For the past 21 months of motherhood has been nothing but a pure blessing to me. My boys is no regret, but I do wish I made different choices. As of today I will try my hardest to break far from this depression!

Guilty Pleasure

I wanted a family more than anything in this world. But now that I have my wonderful boys, I feel so horrible. I wish I had myself together before I had them. I do have a wonderful family who helps with the support, but I still be feeling hopeless not being able to get my boys what they need on my own like how a mother should. I’ve also been depressed because I feel that I am slacking as a mother. No woman should never feel that way about being a mom. All I want is what’s best for my sons. I’m going to push myself much harder to do what I need to do to get back on my feet. Every time I feel like quitting, I’ll visualize  an image of a mirror and in that mirror will be my two boys looking at me.  When I look myself in the mirror my sons is all I see because my life isn’t just about me anymore. Everything I’m fighting for is all for them. They will have everything they need.

When I get on my feet I will stay on my feet. My kids didn’t ask to be here so why should they have to be the ones to suffer? As a mother I cannot let them go through that. I most definitely will not let them down. I’m going to do the very best I can to support them.  I want my boys to have anything and everything they could ever ask for! They are my only motivation. Honestly, I don’t know where I would be without them. They are my light, my energy, my everything! I love my kids with every inch of my heart. There is nothing I could ever ask for because I already have what I’ve been asking for. So now it’s up to me to do what I have to do as a young woman my mom raised me to be! I can’t let her down neither because I know my mom expects better from me.

 

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15 thoughts on “Guilty Pleasure

  1. All I can say is that I am sure that you are doing your upmost best. Keep your chin up and you will get there. I struggle with my anxiety on a daily basis. Sending you hugs and prayers xx

  2. It’s hard being a mum (or mom), but don’t be so tough on yourself. Your children will love you regardless so forgive yourself and just do your best.

  3. Being a mom is the hardest job there is! I hear it said, all they need is love and it sounds like you have plenty of that. Good luck!

  4. I can so relate to this. I am currently suffering from depression and anxiety. Some days are better than others but on the Whole my daughter makes It all better. Sending hugs xxx

  5. I can so relate, I am currently suffering from depression and anxiety. Some days are better than others but on the Whole my daughter makes It all better. Sending hugs xxx

  6. Dont be so hard on yourself. Keep your head up. Part of being a mom is failing at something every single day, and you need to be ok with that! do your best!

  7. What a true post. Thank you for sharing it all. I have often felt the same but I have recently repeated the mantra that tomorrow is a new day and it is never too late to do what you need to do. Whether it be to improve yourself, follow a dream, etc. Tomorrow is a new day and a new start. It’s never too late to do what needs to be done! Hugs! xo

    1. Omg! 😍 You took the words right out of my mouth! I’m actually working on a post similar to what you just said!

  8. Being a mum is hard. I too suffer from depression and anxiety and some days is a struggle. Your kids love you regardless. Dont be hard on yourself.

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