My sons gives me the energy to go above and beyond my abilities. Every morning they inspire me to do the best I can. They are both my motivation. I want to be that image my boys see as a mother of achievements. For the past 21 months of motherhood has been nothing but a pure blessing to me. My boys is no regret, but I do wish I made different choices. As of today I will try my hardest to break far from this depression!
I wanted a family more than anything in this world. But now that I have my wonderful boys, I feel so horrible. I wish I had myself together before I had them. I do have a wonderful family who helps with the support, but I still be feeling hopeless not being able to get my boys what they need on my own like how a mother should. I’ve also been depressed because I feel that I am slacking as a mother. No woman should never feel that way about being a mom. All I want is what’s best for my sons. I’m going to push myself much harder to do what I need to do to get back on my feet. Every time I feel like quitting, I’ll visualize an image of a mirror and in that mirror will be my two boys looking at me. When I look myself in the mirror my sons is all I see because my life isn’t just about me anymore. Everything I’m fighting for is all for them. They will have everything they need.
When I get on my feet I will stay on my feet. My kids didn’t ask to be here so why should they have to be the ones to suffer? As a mother I cannot let them go through that. I most definitely will not let them down. I’m going to do the very best I can to support them. I want my boys to have anything and everything they could ever ask for! They are my only motivation. Honestly, I don’t know where I would be without them. They are my light, my energy, my everything! I love my kids with every inch of my heart. There is nothing I could ever ask for because I already have what I’ve been asking for. So now it’s up to me to do what I have to do as a young woman my mom raised me to be! I can’t let her down neither because I know my mom expects better from me.